bad case of the 'i'm gonna's"

You ever had one of those nights where you just decide, I'm gonna...
Well, I had one and my hope is that it turns into an "I did" instead of a constant "i'm gonna". I tend to have project ADD, wheter it be actual crafts or personal goals. But here's my list of top 3.

I'm gonna:

~find my individual personality again *or develop one* instead of it only being centered around my kiddo's.
~get into bed before 2am so I have better success at getting up by 5.
~start back playing the piano and guitar

I want to do this and be more diligent about finishing my own goals, because I want my boys to see me taking the necessary steps to accomplish them. I'm not a goal setter by nature, but i'd really like for my boys to know how to work hard for what they want out of life. And to do that, I have to lead by example right. So here's to leading!

Love this!

My life...

like all of yours, can be a little on the crazy side at times. I easily get caught up in the drama of life, but the past two weeks have been about realizing what my life is all about. So no stories of housework, errands, kids driving me crazy, or any other trivial thing that is actually so small in the grand scheme of things. No today is a glimpse at my life and what matters to me most!

Daniel and the puppet bus

So some of the girls and I have been doing a Beth Moore Bible study on Daniel. Of all the studies that i've done, this has been the most eye opening study ever. I highly recommend each of you to do it.

I won't get into everything about it just yet because i'm working on a project i'm very excited about and if I start talking now, I won't shut up and i'll spoil it! So again, let me just say that if you need a change in your life this is a good study to do!

ON a totally different note, i'm excited about future plans to start back with the children's church. I stepped down after having Seth and enjoyed the break but ready to get back. We have an old school bus at our church that is drivable except that it leaks power steering fluid. Have you ever tried to drive your own car without that stuff...imagine a school bus!!!! But plans are being cooked up to turn it into a puppet bus and i'm sooooo excited. i've found some really good deals on puppets and i'm working on making some blacklight puppets. I've pulled out some of my old stuff from the drugbusters rally in St. Louis I went to couple times in high school. And hope to get some of the older youth involved in my 3 man puppets. I also hope they will be game for some blacklight hand routines. We'll see how it all plays out. I posted this video I found that kinda give you an idea just in case you've never seen blacklight pupppets or hand routines before. I hope to record and show you some of our own very soon! :)

Terrific Thursday

Not a lot to say because pictures are pretty self explanitory. Words couldn't even begin to explain the wonderfulness of this day anyway. Played kick the cone (if you watch dinosaur train then you know what i'm talking about) We all enjoyed having some fun in the yard, just lovin' these family days.

*let me point out that I realize my wrap is pink. I borrowed it from Tara to see if Aaron would like it, which he does. But I have yet to be able to find some boy material. I'm a girl, so the pink is for me! As you will see the yard work was hard on Aaron, so he had to take a nap :)

Well, let's see...

Sunday we decided to get out of town for a bit and went to Joe's Crab Shack. It was sooo good and Seth loved the shark hanging from the ceiling in there. We ate ourselves silly, including Seth who ate pizza, french fries (his meal), fish, shrimp, crab dip and chips! I was impressed :)

Monday, we were lazy till about lunch time, it was nice. Went to Cackle and Oink for lunch and got a delicious mucho dog, then just hung around. It was a nice relaxing day.

Then Tuesday, Seth and I went to walmart by ourselves for two hours! We had so much fun getting to spend some quality time together. Then he supervised as I cooked with John's help, chicken fried steak, mashed taters, steamed veggies and rolls. John did so good keeping Aaron by himself. I never had any worries about John keeping him, and he's always been willing but Aaron on the other hand...
He kept him again that night and I was able to run up and see Rachel at the hospital after her surgery. I'm glad that's over with for her and hopefully she will start to feel better!

Then Wednesday, we went to the Gainesville Zoo. It was soooo cold this morning waiting in line for tickets, when finally the clouds broke and the sun came out! We had such a great time, even though its small I just love that little zoo. Seth got to see the lady feed the bear, and he fed some elks and a goat. It was so crowded today being spring break and the zoo's birthday. I was excited to see the business for them and it worked great for us because they had a cheap concession stand. $3 for a hotdog, chip and drink. So we had ourselves a little picnic lunch. Seth really enjoyed it and kept looking to the sky while repeating "It's such a beautiful day for a picnic" We rode the train afterwards for the first time, but sadly halfway through the train derailed and we had to walk back. Both boys were great all day long and made for a nice family day!!!

on a side note...Rachel was finally released from the hospital no longer containing a gallbladder. She is sore but doing good. I hope this really helps her feel better and back on track.
Also, so thankful my sister in law is ok. God has his protecting hand on her. She was in a terrible car accident today and is lucky to have walked away from it alive. A truck broke down in a turning lane, another person was going to try and make it through anyway, realized she couldn't and stopped on the highway. Kim hit her going 70! She has some bumps and bruises but nothing serious. Scary to think about what could have been, so i'm not. I'm just thanking the Lord for keeping her safe!

And not to leave you on a sad note, here's our day at the zoo!

Did you read what I said...

So I went to go get us supper last night and...first did you read that?

I went to go get us supper. "I" went to go get us supper, hang on let's read that again.... "I" went to go get up supper...

So what's with that you might ask. Well, let me explain.

John started working 2 jobs last Aug and I was pregnant. It wasn't long before I had gotten so big that walking really did me in. So if John was home he ran to the store. If I went, it was usually because he wasn't home and I had the kids with me.
Aaron was born in Nov. and (little TMI here)since i'm nursing i'm on a very short leash. We have tried and tried to get him to take a bottle with NO luck. I'm not sure why, but he also REFUSED to allow anyone to calm him but me. It wasn't a cry it out and eventually he'd give in. No it was a scream that turned him blue till he'd pass out kinda ordeal. So I just never pushed it. He was also born during a stressful time, not only for us, but for all of our family and I think that had an affect on him.
The first month of his life, my side of the family was contaminated with swine flu, and my dad had knee surgery and couldn't make it up the stairs. John's side of the family had a change in work schedules and slept during the day and worked at night. John was gone all the time, so it was me and the boys.
I didn't leave much because one, i'd just had a baby and stairs are not easy. And two, it seemed like everytime I did Seth would fall asleep. So what i'd do is lock Seth in the car, run the baby in carrier up the stairs, run back down grab Seth carry him up, unlock the door, then grab the carrier and we'd all go in. I didn't go anywhere past 4 because it got dark early and it scared me to do that at night.

The point of all that is to say, I don't know how long before the baby was born, but since he's been born I have not been out by myself very much. In fact, last night was like the 2nd time in 4 months. (1st time was when I talked to you Tiff after getting my haircut and we kept playing phone tag over your dr appt. Same time Kisha we started talking about getting your hair colored and I mentioned Tammy's) The only time i'd had privately was going to the bathroom and even those were few and far between :) You momma's know how all this goes.

So my trip last night to grab supper was wonderful. I felt like i'd won the lottery and didn't know what to do!!! What to do, what to do? So...I ran into the dollar store before grabbing the dairy queen order that had been called in. Let me tell ya, kid-in-a-candy-store!!!! I bought some essentials while I was there too. Oreo's, hostess cupcakes, lucky charms and honeybuns....hahahahahahah sugar much? Don't judge me people, I got excited ok! Anyway, i'm hoping that since Aaron has matured a little and is more content with others, goes longer between feedings that a change is coming. Maybe, just maybe, I might get an evening with John soon?